The last two months have been bitter sweet. For those who are new to this blog, let me update you, I had a baby and five days later my mom suddenly passed away.
For the most part I have been dealing with my mom's loss pretty well. However I do have my bad days, like tonight. My cold might have played a small part in my emotional turmoil. I don't feel good, and all I want to do is sleep but can't! But for the most part I have been missing my mom a lot lately! Not that I hadn't before, but as Allie gets older, I find myself thining of my mom a lot more! I am not sure what kind of parenting advice she would have given me, if you knew the relationship my mom and I had, you would ponder the same thing. We did not have a typical mother daughter relationship, however I would have liked to know what kind of advice she would have given me, or at least to know more about what I was like as a baby! I do have lots of other moms I can ask for advice, but its not the same as your own!
Anyway I hope this cold goes away fast! I am getting cabin fever. I have been indoors for two days, going on three, and I am going insane. I love hanging out with Allie, but we need to get out. Tomorrow there is a baby and mom class I would like to attend, but the fear of infecting other moms and babies is holding me hostage! We will see how I feel in the morning. Right now its not looking so good as I have trouble sleeping when I am sick! My nose hurts from blowing it so much, my eyes hurt, and my throat is scratchy!
