MOTIVATION

I need some, in a bad way! There are many things I would love to do, but just cannot find the motivation to do any of them. One thing I really want to do is get back into shape. I was doing great for a while, but then I fell off the Jillian Michael's wagon. I really like how she organizes her workouts, but I find myself bored with sitting in front of a t.v. doing the same thing over and over. I like to get into shape when it involves doing things I like to do. I like to exercise, but more when its doing something fun like riding a bike, or running, yes I said running. I want to start running, and eventually run in a marathon. That is a goal of mine. Here is the problem, I cannot find the motivation. Perhaps I don't want it bad enough, or I want it, but don't want to put the work in. There are things that need to get done around the house, somethings that need fixing up, but I don't have the motivation nor the energy to do anything. Maybe that's what being a parent is like. I spend a lot of energy, which I don't mind, chasing around a very mobile 9 month old. Not to mention the fact that most nights we don't get very much sleep because according to my daughter sleep is an option!

Anyway the point is I need motivation and don't have any. If any readers out there have any to pass along, please do! For now I guess I am just stuck in this rut, but I will get out. I have no doubt that I will do what I have my mind set on, it just might take a bit of time!

September

Today is the first day of September. I like this day, mainly because its my birthday, but also because Fall starts. Don't get me wrong, I love summer, but I think I love fall just as much! The only downside to fall is the season that follows it! Don't act like you don't know what I am talking about. That season should not be mentioned until the day that white stuff starts to fall. I am not about to take the blame for that disgusting season to start earlier than it has to, all because I mentioned it here! Anyway, fall is such a nice season with all it's bright colors. I also love that you can wear a sweater with no jacket! I love sweater season!

I would like to say I love September because that is when school starts, however since I did not get into school, I cannot say that! I guess the nursing program is full and I did not get off the wait list. So that means I get to look for a full time job! OOHHH I am so excited. (insert sarcasm here). I don't mind working, its just that I would rather be in school for something I really want to do. The job I find now just seems like a waste of time! I am 32 today. I feel like my life is beginning later and later. Not that it has started it some aspects. I love my husband and daughter. I am grateful for the house we were able to buy. What I mean is now that I have to wait for another year to get into school. That means another three years until I can begin my career and another 4 or 5 years until we can expand our family! It just seems like, some days, I am going nowhere fast! Well that is the end of my pity party, I promise.

I am going to go out and fun today. I am not sure what we are doing, but it won't be sitting around here all day! My husband and daughter are both sick so it won't be anything too wild and crazy, but just go have fun as a family!