Who has never been to a wedding? You are thinking everyone has been to a wedding, right?! Wrong, my good friend Lou has NEVER been to a wedding. We won't hold this against her but I just think its weird she has never been. Her wedding will be the first...exciting for her..two firsts! I am excited to go to her wedding..I can't wait to see her. It going to be a blast in just three weeks!
Papercuts really fricking hurt. They are so small yet so painful!! I am currently suffering a little bit of pain while I type this...ow, ow, ow
I am a bit worried about school. The upcoming semester is my last year of my degree. I hope AB will coporate and send me enough money to actually go. If they don't then I must work for a year to try and save enough and then go back, it just seems like such a waste, I am so close!!!
My car is the BIGGEST pain in my ass ever! Yes its old and I fully understand that it will have problems but it shouldn't have any because everything except the motor has been replaced. Its very irritating when you spend so much money at one time to fix the problem and still doesn't work! I just want a new car that works! I do love my car, I shouldn't say its a pain..it got me across Canada with no problems, safe and sound and I am grateful for that!
I had a nice time with my husband and friends on Saturday night. I think going for late night appetizers and drinks should happen more often!!
My husband and I went to the highland games on Saturday. We had a great time. We watched highland dancers, saw pipe bands and drummers, listened to some great Irish and Scottish jigs..then a thought occured to me. How did we go from such nice, peaceful music such as that and others like Beethoven or Mozart to lyrics that involve hoes, bitches and giving that booty a big slap. I am guility of listening to such music, it was just a thought.
I kicked my husbands ass in crib today..skunked him. I am very excited about it. It never happens.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Goodbye
Regret is not uncommon to human nature. We always say I should have done this or If I had only done that and everyone says you should never regret just remember. I am experiencing regret at the moment. My aunt (the one who went missing) was found on Sunday dead. She died of a heartattack or stroke. I hadn't seen my aunt in 12 years and now I am regretting not picking up the phone and calling. However the past is the past and I cannot change that. I will have to remember the good times I did have with her and only hope she knows how sorry I am for not calling first. I hope she knows how much I loved her and how much fun I had with her.
While I am sad she is gone I am grateful she has found peace now. She did not have the best life and for most of it was not happy. I only hope she is happier now. She died doing what she loved to do beside her best friend, her dog.
We had the best times when I was kid. She took me camping and hiking many times and it was probaby one of the best times of my life. Its especially hard for my dad as it was his twin sister. Its like he has lost a part of himself.
It will take sometime but I am glad she has been found and is at peace with herself and the world.
R.I.P. Auntie Carol. We love you and will miss you!
While I am sad she is gone I am grateful she has found peace now. She did not have the best life and for most of it was not happy. I only hope she is happier now. She died doing what she loved to do beside her best friend, her dog.
We had the best times when I was kid. She took me camping and hiking many times and it was probaby one of the best times of my life. Its especially hard for my dad as it was his twin sister. Its like he has lost a part of himself.
It will take sometime but I am glad she has been found and is at peace with herself and the world.
R.I.P. Auntie Carol. We love you and will miss you!
Friday, July 18, 2008
Forgivness
When someone has done you wrong forgivness can be a hard thing to swallow, especially when its by someone you trust and love dearly and you are a teenager. This comes from experience. My dads twin sister was my favorite aunt in the whole world. From a baby until I was 16 years of age we did everything together. She took me camping, hiking, spoiled me and let me get away with things I normally wouldn't at home. It was great at her house and everytime I had to leave I couldn't wait to go back for more fun! I thought we would be close forever. I was wrong.
At the age of 16 my aunt and my family (my dad, brother and stepmom) had a falling out, on her end. She went all weird. Since that (that was 12 years ago) I haven't heard or seen her. Up until a week ago I never thought anything about it, I always got the latest updates from my dad on how she was doing. Now I wish that I had just picked up the phone to say sorry and see what the problem was because I may never get the chance to...ever.
My aunt is missing. She was reported missing last saturday in AB. For almost a whole week no one has seen or heard from her, this is very unsual for her especially considering the situation. She was camping with her dog in her van. Her friend came by to see her and found the van doors open with everything my aunt owned inside with her dog but no aunt carol! So her friend filed a missing persons report and that was the last time anyone saw her.
Its a sad situation. I know I have not seen her or talked to her in a long time but that doesn't mean I didn't want to or could have. I am trying to be optimistic but its been a week and these stories hardly ever end in happiness.
I think about her much more than I did when I knew she was just my aunt who had hurt my 16 year old feelings. I am not sure if that is selfish but its true. I really want her to be ok and even if I never did see her again I hope that she is ok and sees someone in my family again. I think about the 16 years I did have with her and the fun we had. That is the saddest part for me, perhaps knowing that I will never know how she was in these last few months.
I wish that I had just forgave her and picked up the damn phone to see how she was doing instead of being so stubborn and waiting for her! I am kicking myself right now for not reconciling things. The past is the past and I can't change anything but I can pray for her and remember all the good things about her and perhaps forgive and forget a little bit easier next time!
At the age of 16 my aunt and my family (my dad, brother and stepmom) had a falling out, on her end. She went all weird. Since that (that was 12 years ago) I haven't heard or seen her. Up until a week ago I never thought anything about it, I always got the latest updates from my dad on how she was doing. Now I wish that I had just picked up the phone to say sorry and see what the problem was because I may never get the chance to...ever.
My aunt is missing. She was reported missing last saturday in AB. For almost a whole week no one has seen or heard from her, this is very unsual for her especially considering the situation. She was camping with her dog in her van. Her friend came by to see her and found the van doors open with everything my aunt owned inside with her dog but no aunt carol! So her friend filed a missing persons report and that was the last time anyone saw her.
Its a sad situation. I know I have not seen her or talked to her in a long time but that doesn't mean I didn't want to or could have. I am trying to be optimistic but its been a week and these stories hardly ever end in happiness.
I think about her much more than I did when I knew she was just my aunt who had hurt my 16 year old feelings. I am not sure if that is selfish but its true. I really want her to be ok and even if I never did see her again I hope that she is ok and sees someone in my family again. I think about the 16 years I did have with her and the fun we had. That is the saddest part for me, perhaps knowing that I will never know how she was in these last few months.
I wish that I had just forgave her and picked up the damn phone to see how she was doing instead of being so stubborn and waiting for her! I am kicking myself right now for not reconciling things. The past is the past and I can't change anything but I can pray for her and remember all the good things about her and perhaps forgive and forget a little bit easier next time!
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Random thoughts of the day
I know I said I would not post anything about my job for a bit but I must get this out. It has been glorious there for the last week without my boss there, one more week without her, it is heaven. That being said I still don't like my job anymore than before. I do not detest it as much but I still do not enjoy going to work. So I think that my hunt for a new job has been kicked up a notch. I am a people person. I like to talk, those who know me know this and can vouche for that fact. I need to be around social people not mean people. When my boss gets back I am going to tell her I don't like my job and want to leave. This is easier said than done, I talk a lot of talk but I don't walk the walk. I will find the courage to tell her I don't like it. I should just be able to tell her I don't like my job. I am not being mean or nasty about it, I am just simply telling her that the job is not for me. That shouldn't be to difficult right?!
My mother in law and aunt in law are here. It has been a fun week so far. My aunt in law leaves tomorrow which is sad but it was nice to see her! The thing about parents all together is that even when you get old enough to make your own decisions they still feel its their obligation to tell you the right decision regardless of what you think is the right decision. Don't get me wrong I love having them here and can't wait until they visit again but I just feel like I cannot do somethings with them around for fear of a lecture is waiting around the corner. I guess that is the nature of being a parent, always wanting what is best for your children.
I really have to get this paper done. I am not too worried about it though, its only five pages long, that is nothing compared to ten or tweleve pages.
I am super excited for the upcoming festivties this weekend. A friends bday and some partying like its 1999. Should be a good time with the girls!
I just saw a big black cat in my backyard. He was cute but scruffy looking. I miss my cat, I hope he is doing ok.
I posted a comment on a friends blog, I was worried that she might have been upset with my comment but was relived to read that she appreciated my view as much as I appreciated hers. I am glad that opinion giving can be that easy, we respect each others views and appreciate where the other one is coming from. Wish it could that easy for every opinion for every person!
My friends here are so great. My car broke down and I need a vehicle for a day and some friends lent me their car. I am so appreciative of this b/c without their generosity I would have missed school and work. Since I have moved East I have found life much easier to deal with. The people here are much nicer and more thoughtful. Thanks to my friends here in NB for all their support and generosity they have shown the newcomers!
My mother in law and aunt in law are here. It has been a fun week so far. My aunt in law leaves tomorrow which is sad but it was nice to see her! The thing about parents all together is that even when you get old enough to make your own decisions they still feel its their obligation to tell you the right decision regardless of what you think is the right decision. Don't get me wrong I love having them here and can't wait until they visit again but I just feel like I cannot do somethings with them around for fear of a lecture is waiting around the corner. I guess that is the nature of being a parent, always wanting what is best for your children.
I really have to get this paper done. I am not too worried about it though, its only five pages long, that is nothing compared to ten or tweleve pages.
I am super excited for the upcoming festivties this weekend. A friends bday and some partying like its 1999. Should be a good time with the girls!
I just saw a big black cat in my backyard. He was cute but scruffy looking. I miss my cat, I hope he is doing ok.
I posted a comment on a friends blog, I was worried that she might have been upset with my comment but was relived to read that she appreciated my view as much as I appreciated hers. I am glad that opinion giving can be that easy, we respect each others views and appreciate where the other one is coming from. Wish it could that easy for every opinion for every person!
My friends here are so great. My car broke down and I need a vehicle for a day and some friends lent me their car. I am so appreciative of this b/c without their generosity I would have missed school and work. Since I have moved East I have found life much easier to deal with. The people here are much nicer and more thoughtful. Thanks to my friends here in NB for all their support and generosity they have shown the newcomers!
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Job update
So the latest on my last blog is that I did not quit my job. I tried, I gave my week's notice and told her it wasn't my kind of job but she was not having it. She asked me what the problem was, what was stressing me out. I know I talk a lot of trash talk and I think I am big and tough but really thats all it is, talk. I couldn't come up with the words to tell her she was the problem and if she just gave her notice my life would be much better. So I lied and told her it was this one particular part of the job. Actually I didn't lie, that was part of the problem. This one particular part that she gets me to do I always end up doing it wrong and everyday she gets mad at me because I don't understand. So I told her I did not want to do it anymore. I also told her I was frustrated, it affects my home life and I cry all the time. I think maybe she read between the lines a bit and realized that she may be part of this problem. She was ok with my ranting. So she suggested I stay for two weeks because she is going on holidays, out of the province so I won't have to hear from her or see her for two whole weeks. At the end of the two weeks if I am still unhappy I can switch to a different department.
We shall see what happens. Maybe if I stick to the less stressful tasks which don't involve having to talk to her every second of the day it won't be so bad. I handed a resume in to a different place today and they already called me. I am going to to in for the interview, it doesn't hurt to shop around. If they offer me better money then who is to say I shouldn't take it!
So for the next two weeks there should be no blogging about work because there is no one else there that makes me so miserable. Hopefully things work out because starting a new job is not that much fun, being at the bottom of the totem pole, learning new stuff..not that great. So keep your fingers crossed!!
We shall see what happens. Maybe if I stick to the less stressful tasks which don't involve having to talk to her every second of the day it won't be so bad. I handed a resume in to a different place today and they already called me. I am going to to in for the interview, it doesn't hurt to shop around. If they offer me better money then who is to say I shouldn't take it!
So for the next two weeks there should be no blogging about work because there is no one else there that makes me so miserable. Hopefully things work out because starting a new job is not that much fun, being at the bottom of the totem pole, learning new stuff..not that great. So keep your fingers crossed!!
Had enough!
That is it, I have had enough. Well more like we have had enough. My job has brought too many tears, fights and miserableness to my life and my husbands life that we can no longer take it. People say that once you leave work you should leave whatever bad happened at the door, let it go. I am not one of those people. If something bad happens I am mad about it for longer than need be and feel the need to talk about it to who ever will listen. To those people who I talk to about it I am sorry, I am sure that my negative attitude towards work is the last thing you need to hear about. So today will be the last day that anyone needs to hear about my shitty boss and her capability of being incredibly mean.
I am going to the HR department to see if I can switch departments or I am quitting plain and simple. After yesterdays little episode of moodiness I decided I cannot work in that sort of environment any longer. That episode turned into an argument with many tears (on my side) at home which me realize that this is not a healthy work place and that life is too short to work somewhere that you despise. So whether I work somewhere else in the store or not at all I won't be working for her anymore.
The only reason why I kept this up so long, because it is not like me to put up with this much crap I have put up with a lot of crap in my life to never do it again, was to help out the finanical situation at home. I do not want to my husband to have to bear the sole responsibility of being the breadwinner. Last night at the end of our heated argument he told me he did not care about money and all he wanted was for me to be happy and not be bitter and angry anymore because of a stupid job. So thats it. School is coming up anyway which is the focus of my attention, if I can't switch departments I am done working for them. I will look for another job of course but if I don't have one before I quit thats ok too.
I am going to the HR department to see if I can switch departments or I am quitting plain and simple. After yesterdays little episode of moodiness I decided I cannot work in that sort of environment any longer. That episode turned into an argument with many tears (on my side) at home which me realize that this is not a healthy work place and that life is too short to work somewhere that you despise. So whether I work somewhere else in the store or not at all I won't be working for her anymore.
The only reason why I kept this up so long, because it is not like me to put up with this much crap I have put up with a lot of crap in my life to never do it again, was to help out the finanical situation at home. I do not want to my husband to have to bear the sole responsibility of being the breadwinner. Last night at the end of our heated argument he told me he did not care about money and all he wanted was for me to be happy and not be bitter and angry anymore because of a stupid job. So thats it. School is coming up anyway which is the focus of my attention, if I can't switch departments I am done working for them. I will look for another job of course but if I don't have one before I quit thats ok too.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Dear Dimitri's Lady, Grab a fork and try the stuff!
Last night my husband and I went out for a nice dinner at a Greek restaurant in town. It was pretty tasty and we had a good time! At the end of the meal we ordered dessert. The waitress went through the dessert menu and the word chocolate coffee cheesecake caught my ear. I asked the waitress if she had ever tried it, she hadn't. Maybe she did not eat cheesecake so I ordered anyway. My husband heard chocolate lavacake, this was his choice of dessert.
My mouth was watering, I had not had cheesecake in a while and the anticipation of it coming to my table was killing me. My husband was looking forward to his yummy lava cake. I saw it coming, I picked up my fork and like an animal about to attack its prey I waited. She put it in front of me, I dug in immediately. The first bite so tasty.....wait, whats this, not cheesecake. Thats right folks it was not cheesecake. It was chocolate caramel cake. My husband got bakalava and not lava cake. Hmmm there was a problem.
I told the waitress "Excuse me I don't think this is cheesecake, it tastes and looks like regular chocolate cake to me". She says are you sure?! WHAT?! Lady, I have been dying for cheesecake for a long time and I love the stuff, I think I know cheesecake. She still wasn't sure so she asked someone else to check it out, apparently the chocolate cake was marked chocolate coffee cheesecake. She comes back, nope no cheesecake. She says " I am sorry, we must be out of cheesecake, I have never seen cheesecake or had it so I don't know what it is, which is why I did not know that wasn't cheesecake I served you". YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT CHEESECAKE IS?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? DO YOU LIVE UNDER A ROCK?!
Disappointed I still ate the regular old chocolate cake. The waitress felt bad as she could see it in my eyes I desperately wanted cheesecake but what is one to do. I wasn't going to give up the perfectly good peice of chocolate cake in my presence, so I ate. It was good enough, it was just no cheesecake!
My mouth was watering, I had not had cheesecake in a while and the anticipation of it coming to my table was killing me. My husband was looking forward to his yummy lava cake. I saw it coming, I picked up my fork and like an animal about to attack its prey I waited. She put it in front of me, I dug in immediately. The first bite so tasty.....wait, whats this, not cheesecake. Thats right folks it was not cheesecake. It was chocolate caramel cake. My husband got bakalava and not lava cake. Hmmm there was a problem.
I told the waitress "Excuse me I don't think this is cheesecake, it tastes and looks like regular chocolate cake to me". She says are you sure?! WHAT?! Lady, I have been dying for cheesecake for a long time and I love the stuff, I think I know cheesecake. She still wasn't sure so she asked someone else to check it out, apparently the chocolate cake was marked chocolate coffee cheesecake. She comes back, nope no cheesecake. She says " I am sorry, we must be out of cheesecake, I have never seen cheesecake or had it so I don't know what it is, which is why I did not know that wasn't cheesecake I served you". YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT CHEESECAKE IS?! ARE YOU KIDDING ME? DO YOU LIVE UNDER A ROCK?!
Disappointed I still ate the regular old chocolate cake. The waitress felt bad as she could see it in my eyes I desperately wanted cheesecake but what is one to do. I wasn't going to give up the perfectly good peice of chocolate cake in my presence, so I ate. It was good enough, it was just no cheesecake!
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Randoms
I miss the stampede so much!! I have been going ever since I was old enough to remember going. Its my favorite time of year, not christmas, easter or any other commercialized holiday, its Stampede. I love the delicious food, people watching, the live music, all the exhibits, how the city comes together to have a good time, the visitors, I love all of it. I will have to make a trip home during stampede and bring some stampede virgins with me.
I love my one year wedding anniversary present. It is so sweet and thoughtful! I love that my husband is so creative and puts a lot of work, thought and effort into making such wonderful gifts.
I am done working on my paper for the evening. I will hopefully finish it up tomorrow before class. I am a little worried about the first assignment of a new class but am hoping I have done ok.
I am super excited to see my mother and aunt-in-law this up coming weekend. We are going to have a blast! That being said I have a lot of house cleaning to do...blech
I am going home in a month and a half. I am excited to see my family and friends! I will miss my friends in NB of course!
I love my one year wedding anniversary present. It is so sweet and thoughtful! I love that my husband is so creative and puts a lot of work, thought and effort into making such wonderful gifts.
I am done working on my paper for the evening. I will hopefully finish it up tomorrow before class. I am a little worried about the first assignment of a new class but am hoping I have done ok.
I am super excited to see my mother and aunt-in-law this up coming weekend. We are going to have a blast! That being said I have a lot of house cleaning to do...blech
I am going home in a month and a half. I am excited to see my family and friends! I will miss my friends in NB of course!
Happy Anniversary to Me!!
Well it has been one year and two days since I walked up that sandy, rocky, hot aisle with all eyes starring at me, waiting to hear me say I do. It was a great day, little stress and lots of fun. The first year of marriage was great. Many things have happened to make that year go by as quickly as it did but nonetheless it was a great year. I could have not asked for a better spouse!
Our anniversary day was just as great as the actual wedding day, not only was it filled with swimming, eating, and laughing but it was pretty close to what actually happened on our wedding day!! We had food, we went swimming and we laughed..alot. The only thing that did not take place was a bonfire..too hot in Mexico for a fire! We had a great time, thanks guys!!
I look forward to many more years just like the one I had, filled with love, laughter and tears of joy!
Our anniversary day was just as great as the actual wedding day, not only was it filled with swimming, eating, and laughing but it was pretty close to what actually happened on our wedding day!! We had food, we went swimming and we laughed..alot. The only thing that did not take place was a bonfire..too hot in Mexico for a fire! We had a great time, thanks guys!!
I look forward to many more years just like the one I had, filled with love, laughter and tears of joy!
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Not Susie Homemaker!
How do you ruin chocolate chip cookies...why don't you come over and I will teach you!
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
Happy Birthday Canada! Canada is truly one of the best countries to live in. Though I am not a world renouned traveller or have been to a lot of places outside of Canada, I have driven across it and I am blessed to be born and raised in this beautiful country. We have so much to offer. Its a great country and I would not trade it in for anything else!!
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