Happy Fathers Day to all the fathers out there. I miss my dad alot. We weren't very close when I was growing up but when I moved out on my own and became my own person our relationship became very strong. Even though I live far away now its still strong but I miss him tons. Not only do I miss my own dad, I miss my father in law just as much. Both great people!
I do not like my job! I am counting down the days until school starts so full time will no longer be my status. It just seems that no matter how hard I try its never a win-win situation! I go the extra mile and go out of my way to do things and I seem to get in trouble, I don't go the extra mile and still I get in trouble...it never ends!! School and vacation please hurry up.
On a brighter note, I am going to P.E.I in four days. That is very exciting. I will get to see my best friend from. I miss her a lot. Its only a short visit but a visit nonetheless.
I LOATH ants
I miss NYC
I hope this master bedroom project is almost done. It was supposed to be as simple as taking wallpaper off and putting paint on, well six coats we are not done yet. I think we are almost there..hopefully!
Sunday, June 15, 2008
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Fair or not fair..that is the question?!
I have been at my non glamorous job for approx. 3-4 weeks now. So far its......OK! Its a job, it serves its purpose! I work, I get paid, done deal. I get along with the girls there alright, we are not best chums or anything but its not completely unbearable to be there! School starts soon and I will have to be there even less than now which I am patiently waiting for!
My boss is pregnant which means her hormone level has been kicked up a notch which has made her mood swings become even more of a roller coaster ride. She is one of those people that is hard to be mad at! At times she can be super snarky, rude and patronizing and other times be very sweet and nice, those are usually the moments after she has succeeded at being, well, a bitch! I deal with these moods, breathe and move on with my day. I have considered looking for a new job as I don't feel like I fit in with the job or the people but I continue to tell myself its not much longer before I won't be there much at all due to school.
What I am not sure I can deal with is the recent episode that took place. A new girl has started. She seems nice and easy to get along with. Her first day was yesterday. She asked me a few questions about the position as she was hired to do the same job as me. She then asked me about pay. In most cases talking about rate of pay between co-workers is forbidden as its a confidential subject. I told the new girl to ask our boss what she might expect in terms of pay. This is where the question of fairness comes into play and whether or not I should look for new employment!! My boss proceeded to tell me that because I was limited part time while in school, keeping in mind that for the past two months I have been working full time, that the new girl will be getting paid more than me because they expect more from because she will be full time!! I fully understand the new girl will have more responsibility and be expected to do more work, however, in the case that she does the exact same job as me and just freaking started that she should get paid the same as me. What happened to raises based on performance?! The other part of it is the new girl was being trained on stuff I was just learning after being there a month!
This is just icing on the cake. As I mentioned before my boss can be rude. She treats me like a five year old most days. We hired another new girl who also works part time and on her first day she even noticed that my boss was mean to me!! That is not a good impression!! Anyway, I hate looking for a new job. I could always see if another department is hiring, but how do I do that without angering the Queen Bee?! For now I will just have to suffer through. I just have to make it through until Sept, my boss then goes on maternity leave! Hopefully things will get better, if not then a new job it is!! We will see what happens, wish me luck.
My boss is pregnant which means her hormone level has been kicked up a notch which has made her mood swings become even more of a roller coaster ride. She is one of those people that is hard to be mad at! At times she can be super snarky, rude and patronizing and other times be very sweet and nice, those are usually the moments after she has succeeded at being, well, a bitch! I deal with these moods, breathe and move on with my day. I have considered looking for a new job as I don't feel like I fit in with the job or the people but I continue to tell myself its not much longer before I won't be there much at all due to school.
What I am not sure I can deal with is the recent episode that took place. A new girl has started. She seems nice and easy to get along with. Her first day was yesterday. She asked me a few questions about the position as she was hired to do the same job as me. She then asked me about pay. In most cases talking about rate of pay between co-workers is forbidden as its a confidential subject. I told the new girl to ask our boss what she might expect in terms of pay. This is where the question of fairness comes into play and whether or not I should look for new employment!! My boss proceeded to tell me that because I was limited part time while in school, keeping in mind that for the past two months I have been working full time, that the new girl will be getting paid more than me because they expect more from because she will be full time!! I fully understand the new girl will have more responsibility and be expected to do more work, however, in the case that she does the exact same job as me and just freaking started that she should get paid the same as me. What happened to raises based on performance?! The other part of it is the new girl was being trained on stuff I was just learning after being there a month!
This is just icing on the cake. As I mentioned before my boss can be rude. She treats me like a five year old most days. We hired another new girl who also works part time and on her first day she even noticed that my boss was mean to me!! That is not a good impression!! Anyway, I hate looking for a new job. I could always see if another department is hiring, but how do I do that without angering the Queen Bee?! For now I will just have to suffer through. I just have to make it through until Sept, my boss then goes on maternity leave! Hopefully things will get better, if not then a new job it is!! We will see what happens, wish me luck.
Dressed for the occassion
Last night I went in search for a dress for the upcoming wedding taking place next weekend. As I walked through the mall with my husband I knew this task was going to be both gruelling and painful. We went into a couple of stores only to find that most of the clothing was made for girls who had smaller everything than me. As I started to become discouraged I thought looking through here would be a huge waste of time and decided to go somewhere else. The place I had in mind was Pennington's, a store for 14+ ladies.
Normally I would be very upset at the mere mention of such a store and begin to cry. Going to Pennington's is a final truth that I am not a size 8 or 10 anymore. I don't have a problem with bigger people, I have a problem with a bigger me. I used to be one of those girls that could shop in the mall and buy those tiny waisted clothes. The older I get the more junk in the trunk I get!
This time was different. As we drove from the mall to Pennington's, feelings of sadness, discourage. self consciousness and low self esteem seemed to disappear. I kept an open, positive mind about the shopping experience and within little time and lots of money I found a dress. This is a huge thing for me. I don't normally wear anything that is not a pant of some sort and t-shirts that don't cover everything! Anything that shows any skin or cleavage is not something I would wear. Well folks I have come out of my shell. The dresses, I actually found two dresses, show cleavage and are fun and sexy. I tried them on and they looked great, fun and somewhat slimming. I was so ecstatic to have finally found a dress that I feel good in, look good in and have other people think I look good in. Shopping at Pennington's doesn't seem like such a bad idea anymore.
Not only was it a good self esteem booster for me but it was a great experience for my husband. He too was excited to see me in a dress for the first time in four years, well a dress other than my wedding dress.
While I am still not excited about the fact that I am a little more overweight than I should be, I am excited about being able to go clothes shopping without crying in the change room as I try on one shirt or pant after another! Its great to know I can go to a store and things will fit me properly. Self consciousness and lack of self esteem are a thing of the past!
Normally I would be very upset at the mere mention of such a store and begin to cry. Going to Pennington's is a final truth that I am not a size 8 or 10 anymore. I don't have a problem with bigger people, I have a problem with a bigger me. I used to be one of those girls that could shop in the mall and buy those tiny waisted clothes. The older I get the more junk in the trunk I get!
This time was different. As we drove from the mall to Pennington's, feelings of sadness, discourage. self consciousness and low self esteem seemed to disappear. I kept an open, positive mind about the shopping experience and within little time and lots of money I found a dress. This is a huge thing for me. I don't normally wear anything that is not a pant of some sort and t-shirts that don't cover everything! Anything that shows any skin or cleavage is not something I would wear. Well folks I have come out of my shell. The dresses, I actually found two dresses, show cleavage and are fun and sexy. I tried them on and they looked great, fun and somewhat slimming. I was so ecstatic to have finally found a dress that I feel good in, look good in and have other people think I look good in. Shopping at Pennington's doesn't seem like such a bad idea anymore.
Not only was it a good self esteem booster for me but it was a great experience for my husband. He too was excited to see me in a dress for the first time in four years, well a dress other than my wedding dress.
While I am still not excited about the fact that I am a little more overweight than I should be, I am excited about being able to go clothes shopping without crying in the change room as I try on one shirt or pant after another! Its great to know I can go to a store and things will fit me properly. Self consciousness and lack of self esteem are a thing of the past!
Friday, June 6, 2008
Just a thought....
Last night I was watching Apolyptico, a movie about hunters and gatherers living in the rain forest. Doesn't sound so bad right? As I was watching this gruesome movie where men, women, and children were being slaughtered unneccessarily or in other words genocide was taking place, a thought occurred to me, when did society become to know these types of movies as entertainment?
I am not saying if you like these types of movies you are a bad person, I have watched movies that include such gruesome, horrific details but I find myself questioning my decisions to watch such movies. Schindler's list, Hotel Rwanda, Apolyptico, are just a few examples of the movies I am talking about, movies where a race of people get wiped out at the leisure or pleasure of someone else. I am not saying these movies are totally bad either, Hotel Rwanda was about a man who wanted to stay behind as a U.S. troop to save the people of Rwanda while the rest of his country did nothing. Schindler's list was about the Jews and Nazis. These are all films that happened in history and are no doubt interesting and educational.
I am not against educational movies, and so perhaps I am on the fence about this as I like to learn and watch movies that teach me things, however the portrayl of history is where my dislike hangs. Watching human beings be totured is not something that I am willing to pay money for. I have rented these movies in the past and guilty as charged liked them. I think in the future I will be more conscience of the movies I rent and if I would like to learn about the latest genocide movie that comes out I will read about it in a text book. That way I won't be watching the gruesome facts, I will be reading about them but not in such a descriptive manner!
I am not saying if you like these types of movies you are a bad person, I have watched movies that include such gruesome, horrific details but I find myself questioning my decisions to watch such movies. Schindler's list, Hotel Rwanda, Apolyptico, are just a few examples of the movies I am talking about, movies where a race of people get wiped out at the leisure or pleasure of someone else. I am not saying these movies are totally bad either, Hotel Rwanda was about a man who wanted to stay behind as a U.S. troop to save the people of Rwanda while the rest of his country did nothing. Schindler's list was about the Jews and Nazis. These are all films that happened in history and are no doubt interesting and educational.
I am not against educational movies, and so perhaps I am on the fence about this as I like to learn and watch movies that teach me things, however the portrayl of history is where my dislike hangs. Watching human beings be totured is not something that I am willing to pay money for. I have rented these movies in the past and guilty as charged liked them. I think in the future I will be more conscience of the movies I rent and if I would like to learn about the latest genocide movie that comes out I will read about it in a text book. That way I won't be watching the gruesome facts, I will be reading about them but not in such a descriptive manner!
Thursday, June 5, 2008
Rue the day!!
If I ever find out who invented wallpaper I am going to hunt them down and say you will rue the day you were born!! Ok so I am no Charolette but I like her idea...whoever this person is has not made me a happy person. While we are on the subject of people not making me happy, along with the inventor of wallpaper is the person who used wallpaper in this bedroom I am about to PAINT! Paint people....its easy to take off and its not so ugly!
Wallpaper is the bain of my existence!! I have spent the better part of the morning and afternoon ripping off the stuff that holds wallpaper up, yes my friends gross paper and glue! Luckily I have a friend who guided me with her wise ways. Put some laundry detergent in water and soak the hell out of that crap!! It works but nonetheless still a pain in my ass (and wrist)
I am almost done this tedious task and when I am if I ever see wallpaper again....well I don't know what will happen but it won't be too soon!!
Wallpaper is the bain of my existence!! I have spent the better part of the morning and afternoon ripping off the stuff that holds wallpaper up, yes my friends gross paper and glue! Luckily I have a friend who guided me with her wise ways. Put some laundry detergent in water and soak the hell out of that crap!! It works but nonetheless still a pain in my ass (and wrist)
I am almost done this tedious task and when I am if I ever see wallpaper again....well I don't know what will happen but it won't be too soon!!
One of those days!
Ever have one of those days where you just want to lie around on the couch and be as lazy as humany possible, turn on the old boob tube on and eat endless amounts of food? Well today is one of those days. Its my day off and nothing in my life requires my immediate attention.
Well a girl can dream, I won't be having one of those days for a long time! The essence of this day is lost in my world! Sure I can lie on the couch and eat....in front of a blank television screen.
Thats right folks I have no tv. Well the physical object exists in my living room but with no cable going through it. Normally I don't care about tv. I used to have peasant vision (when you only get the channels that come along with just simply plugging your tv in), this was fine with me. I found shows on that I could watch and be satisfied with. I don't have peasant vision or anything else due to the fact that I live out of town. Again, normally this does not concern me, until today. I am bored and all I want to do is watch mindless tv, however this is not going to happen.
You are probably wondering why I don't just call the cable company and get them to set up cable in my house. Well for me its not as simple as it sounds. Its an on-going battle with my husband. He does not like tv therefore he does not care if we have it. He would rather watch a movie any day. I like movies as much as the next person but there comes a point when I just want to watch something other than a fricking movie. Its bad enough that we watch movies at night after dinner before bed. Movies for breakfast, lunch and dinner...man that is a lot of movies, too many for me to handle. I need to know whats going on outside this house!
I have brought this issue up with him several times, he sees it as a waste of money. I see it as entertainment. Its a battle that will be going for a while, but someday I will win.
Rather than dwell on how pissy I am about the subject I must look at it in this light: perhaps not having cable during the schoolyear is ok. I am in my last year of school and I really need to buckle down and put my nose to the grindstone rather than worry about whats on tv!
However, during these summer months when I have freedom it would be nice to spend that freedom however I choose, watching mindless tv.!
Well a girl can dream, I won't be having one of those days for a long time! The essence of this day is lost in my world! Sure I can lie on the couch and eat....in front of a blank television screen.
Thats right folks I have no tv. Well the physical object exists in my living room but with no cable going through it. Normally I don't care about tv. I used to have peasant vision (when you only get the channels that come along with just simply plugging your tv in), this was fine with me. I found shows on that I could watch and be satisfied with. I don't have peasant vision or anything else due to the fact that I live out of town. Again, normally this does not concern me, until today. I am bored and all I want to do is watch mindless tv, however this is not going to happen.
You are probably wondering why I don't just call the cable company and get them to set up cable in my house. Well for me its not as simple as it sounds. Its an on-going battle with my husband. He does not like tv therefore he does not care if we have it. He would rather watch a movie any day. I like movies as much as the next person but there comes a point when I just want to watch something other than a fricking movie. Its bad enough that we watch movies at night after dinner before bed. Movies for breakfast, lunch and dinner...man that is a lot of movies, too many for me to handle. I need to know whats going on outside this house!
I have brought this issue up with him several times, he sees it as a waste of money. I see it as entertainment. Its a battle that will be going for a while, but someday I will win.
Rather than dwell on how pissy I am about the subject I must look at it in this light: perhaps not having cable during the schoolyear is ok. I am in my last year of school and I really need to buckle down and put my nose to the grindstone rather than worry about whats on tv!
However, during these summer months when I have freedom it would be nice to spend that freedom however I choose, watching mindless tv.!
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Stuff
I love the rain...it reminds me of worms.
I do not like slugs...they are DISGUSTING and currently residing along the side of my house because of the rain!
I miss my family and friends, especially my father-in-law! It was his birthday yesterday. He is so great, I could not ask for better in-laws.
I am so excited to go to P.E.I. in a couple of weeks. I will not only get to see some of those great friends I miss but I also will be attending a wonderful wedding....and I get to buy a new dress which is always fun too!
I am also very excited to see my mother-in-law and her sister! They will be here in just over a month. This will be the first time they get to see our house, the first family members ever to see the house. I am super excited and hope they like it!!
Lately I have been talking alot about babies. I know a lot of women who are expecting right now, this could be the reason for my recent obession w/babies or maybe its my biological clock ticking. How do you know when it is ticking? Is there a certain age that it begins, are there signs?? Hmmm I am not really sure, what I am sure of is that there will be no baby making around here for at least another year so this baby talk will just have to be exactly that, talk!
I LOVE the Sex and the city movie...it was so great, not only was the movie great but the ladies I went with are just as great.
I do not like slugs...they are DISGUSTING and currently residing along the side of my house because of the rain!
I miss my family and friends, especially my father-in-law! It was his birthday yesterday. He is so great, I could not ask for better in-laws.
I am so excited to go to P.E.I. in a couple of weeks. I will not only get to see some of those great friends I miss but I also will be attending a wonderful wedding....and I get to buy a new dress which is always fun too!
I am also very excited to see my mother-in-law and her sister! They will be here in just over a month. This will be the first time they get to see our house, the first family members ever to see the house. I am super excited and hope they like it!!
Lately I have been talking alot about babies. I know a lot of women who are expecting right now, this could be the reason for my recent obession w/babies or maybe its my biological clock ticking. How do you know when it is ticking? Is there a certain age that it begins, are there signs?? Hmmm I am not really sure, what I am sure of is that there will be no baby making around here for at least another year so this baby talk will just have to be exactly that, talk!
I LOVE the Sex and the city movie...it was so great, not only was the movie great but the ladies I went with are just as great.
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